meaning of love in a million meanings

I stood at the edge of the rug pride
waiting for you who never returned from the shadows of the past
and I always stood above the rubble of hate
as always waiting for that either knew or not that I feel
one thing that I believe that I will never be able to wait that never again

as I stood above the moonlight you see me in the living longing, 
waiting for you who did not come
 like a fool I love you,
just as the fool I let you go 
 like a fool I ask you again 
 and like a fool I was so attached to you
 
I think I want to let go of me on your heart, 
but like the wind I forget, 
I want to hate you,
but I ignored it like a stone 
I want to throw my heart away to the ocean, 
but like the tears I hold him
I shout your name into your heart away,

but you did not hear it tooI whisper my heart to you,
but you also do not feel it
 I gently caress your soul, but you also see it ta
 
what should I do, so you notice me? 
what should I do, so you see me with your heart? 
what should I do, so you'll hear me with your soul?
 
let me drown when you love me 
let me cry when you notice me
 and once again let me keep my heart that has been fragile